I hate letting go.
HATE.
I feel like a failure.
I feel like a loser.
I just want to succeed at everything I do.
Especially when it comes to guys, relationships, and that stupid "L" word.
You know what the problem is? You get attached, fast.
And once you're attached to someone, you do everything
you can to please them and make them happy. It's never
been about what you want, it's always everyone's needs
before your own. You give out too many chances to people,
who quite frankly, do not deserve them. They take advantage
of you, and you become a pushover. But you're okay with that
because they're in your life and that's all you ever really wanted.
And even if they screw you over, you'll still be there for them.
Because that's you, that's who you are. Once you get attached
to someone, they capture your heart and they always have a
place there. And that is why it's so hard for you to let him go.
To the future guy who decides I'm worth it, I can't promise to make all of your problems go away, but I can promise you that you will never face them alone.
And to the guy who this post is all about?
I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I'm insecure,
I'm sorry that I'm jealous,
I'm sorry that I'm stubborn,
I'm sorry that I'm not your perception of gorgeous.
I'm sorry that I'm not perfect.
I'm sorry that I wasn't good enough for you,
and I'm sorry that I never will be.
I'm sorry that I'm not her, But Really?
I'm sorry that you just lost a girl who truely cared about you,
and you didn't even give her a chance.
Sadly, I believed in second chances, but for once, I don't believe in you.
Don't say you loved me, because we both know you didn't. You just didn't want to be alone.
Or maybe, I was good for your ego. Or maybe I made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn't love me, because you don't destroy people you love.
So, I know that you want to blame this on me, and blame me for being dramatic, but you lead me on, and I fell for it. Hard. And in order to move on, like you want, I have to let you go. Completely. Take me unfriending you, and blocking you from texting me as your welcome for all the pain you've put me through. I'm doing us both a favor. And if you want to change it? You know what to do.
Life is hard. Break ups are not easy, especially if it's not a normal breakup. Having guys as your best friend, then being in a relationship, then trying to be friends again just doesn't work.
Take my word for it, if you do it, you'll end up like me. Depressed, alone, confused.
Time to let go.