You're stronger than you think you are...

but only if you want to be.

Hullo friends! How are we this fine... almost Christmas Eve?

Everyone else has been updating, so I think I shall as well.

Currently, I am eagerly awaiting the arrival of January. It brings many new things, opportunities, friends, relationships, and a sister-in-law. All of which, I am excited about.

Lately, I've found myself in a very overly excited mood. People have pointed out said mood to me at work. I enjoy having this pointed out, because that means I've made a difference in someones' day. No, I'm not going to sit here and people please everybody, but if some people are a little happier because I'm around, that's not a bad thing :).

I find myself cold. Often. It's rather annoying. I blame my surgeries, because before I had the surgery to remove the tumor, and the surgery to fix my ankle, I was never cold in this type of weather..

Now I'm shakin' in the break room, during break. Lame.

I hate physical therapy. With a passion. Why? Because, they have started to use these metal things to 'get rid' of scar tissue. Push it around. Whatever. The true meaning of it, is to make my leg look like someone beat it with a baseball bat. I swear, that's the secret intention. However, I will accept it for now, because hopefully they will stop using it soon. Physio peeps say that my ankle is doing pretty darn good for only being back at physio for almost 2 months now. I'd like to think it's because I'm an over achiever, and when you tell me I can't do something for a while/not at all, I'll work my best to prove you wrong. Because, that's just me.

Ah. James is coming 2 weeks from today! Sadly, I will not be able to see him unless I surprise him, which, okay, I'm thinkin' about doing that. But I'm also working on a project right now that may take up a little bit of my time, for now. I'm working on it. We're working on it. It's all good :)

I found out today that one of my old Elementary school friends is now married with a baby. She's only a month and 2 days older than myself, therefore, the idea freaks me out. Why is everyone getting married? Am I missing something? Is this the era of jobless women? Really? I can assure you, I more than likely won't be getting married for at least another 3 or 4 years. I'd like to either finish, or almost finish my Bachelors, although I know Heavenly Father has other plans for me.  I'd like to think that I know what he wants me to do sometimes, and I know for sure, that going forth in my education is one of them, but so is being a wife, and a mom. I just hope I can get my education completed first, before I become a mom at least.

Wow, I feel like an Adult when I talk about things like marriage and children, creepy. 

As of late, I have felt that I can never shut up, yet when it comes to actually sitting down and typing/writing, I seem to be at a loss for words. How strange. I know I'm not ADHD or anything like that, I just think that I have many important decisions, and other thoughts that have been on my mind, causing me to think about many things all at once. This sounds like somethings wrong, but in all honesty, I feel fine. Just a lot of decisions to make. Hopefully I'm making the right ones, but I'll never know until I make decisions.

I always have to remember that I'm stronger than I think I am, but only if I want to be. I can't sit here and wait around for someone to do it for me, although I can allow for people to help me. I'm working on that.

2 am. I think I'm going to call it a night. Merry Christmas, and Happy Holidays.

And remember,

Keep taking chances, you'll never know what might or could have been if you don't try.

<3 Chels

The countdown begins...

To what exactly?

The new year my friends :)

I know, I know. "But Chelsea! What about CHRISTMAS?!?!"

Well, let's just say, the New Year holds a lot more in store for me then this year. I want to put this year of problems behind me and start off fresh. As much as I love Christmas, I am looking forward to the many new adventures I will start to have. First, there's James coming :) I'm very excited, because he's like my best friend, and we have a lot planned. Then there's my brothers wedding (Which.. I kind of.. Still.. have to.. get a dress for....... Whoops.) Then, my sister is coming out in March :) March also happens to be my 19th birthday. I know, it's not as exciting as past birthdays, but I think it signifies more to me that I'm growing up. Don't ask me why. It just works out that way. But back to my sister. She and her husband will be officially adopting their little boy and be sealed to him in the temple for time and all eternity. And let's face it, who couldn't love going to the temple for that?

There's also the side note that I'm moving. No, I don't know when exactly, or where I'm going to move too, but I have made it a goal to be moved up to Logan by March/April. I keep changing my mind from February to April, but I decided I won't have enough money saved up to move then. Why am I moving? 

You know, I ask myself this question daily. "Why do I want to move away from home so badly? Why do I want  to have to pay rent, bills, etc?" Well. To put it bluntly. I want to be an adult. I feel like I am allllways checking in with my parents, and taking on a bunch of their burdens that aren't really something I should worry about. Plus, I'm hoping to transfer to a Wal-Mart up there, so it's not like I'm just going to be irresponsible and move without a job. I'm thinking this out. I'm going to be smart with how I go forth with my new adventures. Including this one.

I'm also taking chances. Again. Yes, I'm pretty sure I will mention this phrase in every blog post, but when I read "I'm taking chances" it always inspires me to continue to do so. For example, I've gone out of my comfort zone and have befriended someone who I would have never befriended. I'm taking a chance by meeting said person, in person. But, I've known said person for three months now, and I don't think there's anything hidden in the background. Of course, my guard is up, no worries. I'm not an idiot. And, I'm not someone you can take advantage of anymore. I've change, but it's for the better.

I've learned to put more trust in God. That's taking a chance, especially for me.

I'm not going to lie when I say I've struggled with God for the past two years of my life. When I found out about the tumor, all I could think of is "Why? What did I do wrong to deserve this?" Yet I learned from that experience, and I met people I don't think I would have met without having surgery. Then there was not being able to afford school. I wondered, "Why am I being punished?! I'm supposed to get an education!" True statement of fact, but then I found out about my Ankle needing surgery, so I feel blessed that I didn't waste money, and that I was able to fix the problem. Sure, I'm still healing, and it looks like I have a whole nother month of this to look forward too, however, without having the surgery, I wouldn't have met a friend who I hold dear to my heart.

If you're still reading, then I'm proud that you consider my thoughts worth reading. I find peace within my blog, and I hope you can find a few things in it as well.

I'll update with more information soon. Hopefully it will be just as exciting :)

<3 Chels

taking chances and suceeding!

Hello friends! First of all…
IT’S DECEMBER!
You know what that means right? Christmas… Magical moments.. Christmas.. I’m pretty sure December is my most favourite month of the entire year (Including my birthday!) The lights, the snow, the perfect picture moments. I love it all. Hot chocolate by the fire, I mean, come on people. This is taking chances at its finest! ((Christmas itself has to fight against the Atheists, and they're not easy to deal with! I mean, I'm sorry, we wouldn't even be here if it weren't for Christ, and this holiday wouldn't be here if it weren't for Christ. You can't spell Christmas without Christ! It would just be Mas! And who wants to write a song about Mas? NO ONE!!!)), Making amazing memories! Life lives for this time of the year :)
Update on me yes? I mean, it’s obvious that you read my blog to find out more about what I’m up to and things I don’t say on facebook and stuff, so I should continue yes?

I’m back to work :) And although the excitedness has worn off just a bit, I’m still very much happy to be back. A lot of coworkers have expressed their happiness that I’m back, and I’m glad I wasn’t totally forgotten :) Even one of the assistant managers who is a sweetheart said she was glad to see me back. It made me feel very appreciated :)

However, Ms. Grumpy pants here is not very happy about me working again. Have I mentioned I’m still looking at another month of Physical Therapy? I mean, Jeez! You would think my ankle would be a little more appreciated of the things I do for it to stay attached to my person, but no. Whatever am I talking about? It has decided that it wants to make my ankle sore. A lot. However, today I mixed me taking some pain relievers (non drowsy of course), two icy hot patches placed accordingly on my ankle (and not on my new cool scar), and my brace to make it hurt less. I’m onto you ankle, I’m onto you..
Now back to me (and no, this is not a Old Spice commercial, sorry). How am I doing? Much better guys. I’m back to my normal self :) Which means I’m once again letting people vent to me and am a good listener once more. I just had to figure out how to listen to other people’s burdens without taking them on my own shoulders, and with some help from some of my closest friends, I was able to do just that :) Oh! That, and life is finally, finally starting to look my way :)
One of the reasons is because James (names have been changed to protect the identity of the unidentifiable) is coming to Utah in January officially! He has been accepted to Utah State :) Now, who is James? James is one of my best friends. Especially when it comes to guys I can trust. He and I have a lot in common, and he’s just awesome :) We talked on the phone today, and it was one of the best conversations I’ve had over the phone in a long, long time. I’m really grateful god put him in my life, I consider him a real blessing  (especially after some of the drama I’ve gone through the past month"). He’s always been there for me (As has my Best Friend Brittany, who has a blog, and my other best friend Eve, who also has a blog), and he’s an amazing listener. No worries, I’m not overusing him. I’ve been lending my ear when he needs it, and have been offering him advice when he asks. (And sometimes when he doesn’t ask). Bah, I’m just so happy with this news :)
Speaking of USU, I’m in the talks with the President of Admissions to help me get a better scholarship, so the financial burden won’t be as big :) I plan to move up to Logan around March/April, so I can be transferred to a Walmart up there so I have a secure job for when I start school (and so I can be up there in general, and no, it’s not just because of James).
 Oh! Before I forget, I also did a photo shoot for one of my good friends, Katie Fairchild. Imma say her name, because I’m giving her publicity :) If you like her work, and are interested in learning more about her, you can go here http://katiechristinaphotography.blogspot.com/.

Well, I think I’ve chatted quite enough. How are you doing?
<3 Chels