If I’m not your first choice, then I’m not an option, because there’s a difference between giving up, and knowing when you’ve had enough.

First of all...

That’s me and my hair. It’s super long, and I love it. You can’t really tell, but my hair is officially all one color. It’s brown, with copper in it, and it looks wonderful.

Second of all..

Sometimes, you just need to distance yourself from people. If they care, they’ll notice. If they don’t, you know where they stand.

Third...

You know that feeling when you feel like no one understands you, you feel like just sitting in your room and crying, you feel so confused, you just want to give up, you have no self confidence whatsoever, and you feel like no matter what you do, you can’t do it right? You’re not alone. Not in the slightest.

Some things don’t last forever, but some things do. Like, a good song, or a good book, or even a good memory. A memory that you can take out and unfold in your darkest times, pressing down on the corners and peering in close, hoping you still recognize the person you see there. But don’t worry, you will. Sometimes it’s hard to find yourself, but that’s why we have certain people in our lives, to help us when we least expect it.

You might feel worthless to one person, but you are priceless to another. Don’t ever forget your value. Trust me, I know what that feeling is like, I  find myself  in that feeling more often than not, but you have to ask yourself. Is he/she worth it? Usually The answer is always no. Do you feel worthless? Like nothings going to get better? Every move you make is painful? Is that how you really feel? Well, I’m here to tell you that it does get better. I’m living proof.

Personally, I’d rather have my life an exciting mess than a perfect, boring one. Not only am I making mistakes, and learning from them, but I’m also meeting people I may have never met, who would have never impacted my life the way they have. I would have never delt with duchebags, which would make it impossible for me to know how my friends feel when they deal with them. I would have never delt with girls who are too full of themselves/put people down for fun, and wouldn’t be able to defend my friends, family, or myself against their selfish ways.

Dealing with crap is never fun, I know, but think about it. Where would you be if your life had been perfect? Start turning you’re cant’s into cans, and your dreams into plans. The only person stopping you is yourself.

The road of life is not straight for a reason.

There is a curve called failure, a loop called confusion, speed bumps called friends, red lights called enemies, and caution lights called family. You will have flat tires called jobs, but if you have a spare called determination and an engine called perseverance, you will make it to the place called success.

And that’s all that I have to say. I hope that through my jumbled thoughts, you found something that helped your day go better.

<3 Chels