Mr. Sandman ditched me for Narnia.

It’s 3:03 (3OH!3) in the morning.

Not only have I read every freaking facebook post to boot, I have also read several blogs, contemplated  my life, created a new nuclear weapon, and brought people back to life.

Just kidding.

One thing that makes me tired? My work schedule. I don’t work on my birthday (March 27th people. If you forget, I will never remember your birthday ever, ever, again….), however. My work has decided to cast aside the 2 to 11 shift, and are instead replacing it with a 4pm to 1 am shift. I work said shift the day before, and after my birthday. ASDFGHJK. I’m getting tired just thinking about it. It’s almost like working overnights, except you don’t get paid as much, and you don’t work till 7.. Only till 1.

Of course, if you work in the fitting room, you get the 2pm to 11pm shift.

Me? Psh. They have me working all over the place. Which, I think I’m okay with that. I honestly want OUT of the place where I feel like I am not being useful at all. Sure, I answer the phone, send customers to the correct department, get returns, fold tables, put clothes away, etc.. But I feel like I could be more useful elsewhere. I would rather be a Cashier, or work at the service desk. I can interact with customers more and be more useful at the store.



Even in my tired mood, I find myself very annoyed at the whole entire universe. And no, it is not PMS, unless you’re referring to Pissed at Men Syndrome, than yes, I do have that.

Boys are obnoxious. They either like you because they think it’s fun to screw around with your emotions, or they get pissed at you because you don’t care enough about their emotions. Here’s the deal boys. If we’re not in a relationship, I’m going to date other people besides you. No, this is not me cheating on you, this is me keeping my options opened, because oh hey! I’m freaking SINGLE. Don’t get pissed at me about it unless you plan on changing that. Goodness. You would think that this would be…. Common knowledge. Sure, you could defend boys here, saying, ‘They don’t understand things like that.’ or ‘They aren’t smart enough to realize they have to be upfront with the status of your relationship.’ Here’s the deal kids. Boys are players. They play this game a lot. However, they need to realize that they are not the only players of this game. ‘Never play a game with a girl who can play it better”’ Especially if said girl is me. I’m done dealing with their drama. I’m done dealing with their ‘Woe is Me!’ act. There hasn’t been a boy/man to prove to me that they deserve  to be with me, and can live up to MY expectations (Which you can blame movies for how high those are…). Until someone does, I’m going to just keep dating around.



Hold the phone. I’m apologizing? For what?

This person knows who they are. Due to something that was ridiculous to fight about in the first place, this person and I are no longer friends. It’s sad really, because now we see each other and act like strangers. After everything we’ve gone through. So, this is my apology to this person. I’m sorry things are ending this way. I don’t want them to be over, but it seems to me that you want things to be this way. Well, alright then.  Some things I take the blame for, but it’s not just me. So, this is my apology, since we haven’t talked in person much, and avoid each other like the plague. It’s a crappy one at best, but it’s the best I can do in our current situation.



Don’t you just love how I jump from topic to topic? This is because I have so many different thoughts in my pretty head, that they are all just coming out at once. This part though, is just for you. Whoever is reading this as I type. You were given this life because you’re strong enough to live it. Only you. Those trials that have come upon you? Yeah, no one can handle those trials better than you. Oh, don’t even ‘pfffft’ or ‘whatever’ me. Every person is dealing with different circumstances in their life. Two people may be given the same trial, but each outcome is different because of the person. Sometimes you’re not given what you want, because something better is planned for you instead. Everything happens for a reason. Even if the reason isn’t clear at first.
So, in conclusion, I need to conquer my insomnia, Guys only act like jerks to make up for their lack of being chivalrous, I’m Sorry, and Life is one bumpy ride. Enjoy every minute of it.

And I hate it when I’m in my yard, drinking my milkshake, then all these boys show up. Talk about Awkward.

Night guys. 

<3 Chels

Side note: I do have an exception to my ‘guys’ comment. He knows who he is.