You’re stronger than what you give yourself credit for.

Right.

I know that a lot of you are struggling with things right now. Whether it be associated with relationships, friendships, school, work, or family situations,  life probably isn’t a pocketful of sunshine right now.

I myself have had a rough couple of days. Trying to get my thoughts straight is a… overwhelming task. I don’t even know what I’m thinking sometimes. And, it doesn’t help that I’ve been letting the wrong people get to me. I know, that seems a little impossible right? Eh. Even the strongest of people have to break down sometimes. I consider myself a strong person. I have a hard time letting people in now a days because I was such a strong person, and then someone ruined it for me. But, it’s okay. I’m learning that not everyone is out to ruin your life. As dramatic as that sounds, it’s how I’ve been feeling the past few months. That, when someone new appears in my life, they won’t stay for long, yet I associate myself with them, and then get hurt in the end. My own doing, however, not my own fault.

It’s not a bad thing to care a lot, depending on who you talk to. You’re talking to me though, and I say that caring isn’t a bad thing. It shows that you have a heart, that you are willing to put someone elses happiness in front of your own. Although, don’t do that all the time, because if you haven’t learned from me yet, if you only care about everyone else and not yourself, you’ll overwhelm yourself to the point of sickness and exhaustion, and border the sanity line.

Right now it feels like the end of the world. All your battles are lost, you’ve been cheated and mistreated. Just when you think you can’t hold on any longer, keep holding on. Trust me, you’ll see how much stronger you can be.

And seriously, you’re stronger than what you give yourself credit for. So dry your eyes, clear your mind. You have to take it one day at a time. Dust off your heart, take it off the shelf, because before you can move on, you have to remember to love yourself.

I’m going to be honest. (Although I already am..) If I could redo my life, I’d make the same mistakes again. I’d trust the wrong people, fall in love with the wrong guys, and I’d love all the same people, even if they ended up hurting me. Why would I do that to myself? Because all those mistakes have made my life as amazing as it is today. If my life had been perfect, I wouldn’t know heartbreak. I wouldn’t know how I’m supposed to treat people. Without all the bad things that happened, I wouldn’t be able to make good decisions.

However, that does not mean that you’re going to get away with it when you hurt me intentionally. Trust me, someone is about to find out that you can only ignore me for so long before I do it right back. And when I ignore people, it’s as if a big part of your life is missing. Yes, I’m being conceited. Immature? Sure. Does this person deserve it? You have no idea. Don’t let anyone walk over you. You are much better than that. I promise.

I have to take my sister and the baby to the airport in…. 5 hours. *Insert one of the biggest sighs ever.* I can hear my heart shattering right now. It may start out to be a crappy day, but it will only stay that way if I let it (Which I won’t!).

Night :)

<3 Chels